Teacher Caught In Compromising Postion With A Doll

not at school, though. But very close...

Having Patience

Yesterday while James and I were unpacking and organizing some things, I mentioned to him that I had found my keys. They had gone missing the day before. My five year old was listening(as always) and jumped into the room. She put her hands on her hips and with a child's scowl look on her face said, "Mama! I hid your keys so you wouldn't have to go to work!". Ah, the anguish in my heart. I wonder what she made out of my facial expression, because I had no words at the moment. She was hurt that I found the keys and that is why I left for work the other day(I had used daddy's). So I quickly repremanded her for stealing and hiding things from us and she went back to playing. James was in the room the whole time, but was silent. After 12 years of marriage, he knows me, and I was a water keg about to burst..but I didn't. So when he left the room, I called Big girl in and gave her and baby girl a big hug and kiss, and told them I loved them, and hopefully I will be home soon.

I always make sure my children are not around when I talk to husband about coming home from the workplace, but maybe she has eavesdropped on some of our talks. Either way, she is as desperate for me to stop working outside the home as I am.
I know some would suggest getting her more outside activities to do during the day to distract her and take her mind off of the fact that she misses me, but that is just creepy to me.

So I was feeling sorry for myself and my decision to not put her in government school, when as always, the Lord gives me some encouragement. Here's a portion of an email I received from my aunt. She was replying back to me. I had forgot I have written her.

When it comes to home schooling you really would have to have worked in the public system and the private system to see its value. I have worked public and I have worked private. The only reason I am in the public system is the money. Van still works in the private/public system. #1 priority is to join a home schooling group and a home schooling university. You can find them online. You can find the closest ones in your community.
I don't personally think that is the #1 priority, but it does seem important to do

The best way to set the family at ease is test scores. I am sure you are smart enougn to get the job done. Get as much knowledge as possible before you really start...Remember, while you set-up your system and finalize it, some things you will have to keep to yourself and share only with James.

It might not seem like much, but it was just the thing I needed to remind me of why I am doing what I am doing. So, I am trying to be patient with my situation at work just in case my Big girl is still eavesdropping...

Coming out of the home school closet to my family...slowly

My Aunt( 3 states away) has known about my desire to home school for a year or so now. She is a teacher and doesn't have much good to say about public school. She hates "No Child Left Behind" even more. It was a comfort that she thought home schooling my children was a good idea if I wanted to do it. While we differ on some issues that I feel border on socialist, she has been a confidant lately while I struggle with my decision and wait for my husband's decision.

My mom has dropped in on a couple of conversations we've had about public school "reform" and home schooling, so I knew it was about time for her to start some intervening. So lately I have been dropping more hints to my mother and my sister, both opposed to home school(for the sake of the child of course). Our convos have usually gone like this:

sis: Soooo, BigGirl is going to kindergarten next year!
me: Well,(cough)...no, we think we'll keep her home for a couple more years while we decide if we want to home school.
sis: (wide eyed)Oh?
me: You know, in NC a child doesn't have to begin school until they are 7.
sis: Really? So what grade will she go into at 7?
me: First, maybe Second.
sis: For real? She doesn't have to go to kindergarten?
me: No...

As for my mother, she doesn't ask directly if I am keeping the kids home. She more so fishes for it by adding in school commentary to a normal conversation.

me: Goodness! BigGirl just gets going and sometimes it hard to calm her down. She's so hyper.
mama: Oh, that will all straighten out when she starts school next year.

Uh, school will calm her down? Straighten her out?
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I've been 'a surfin'...

Oops! Been a few days since I checked in.

Not much going on though. I have been reading alot on home schooling. It's a very diverse crowd out here in cyberland.
I ran into lots of black home school support groups. Alot of sectarian homeschool blogs, and mixed bag of evolutionist, liberal, and athiest home school sites - for which I am all grateful for at least one reason, parent owned education. I will add links later If I am moved to do so.
My feelings were turned off by some of the anti- homeschooling opinions I read, but I have resolved myself to use those feelings as a touchstone of my commitment to home school. You know- can I handle the heat?...

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So...in light of my determination to research as much on home education as I can, I received a small(very small) boost the other day. James came out of nowhere with a comment about being able to bring me home soon if certain things(that are going well) stay on the same path. Yay!...Pray for us, please.

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I have been staying away from my usual Christian debate forums for a minute. They have me feeling a little grieved. Alot of infighting along with my intense research online for the past few days has made me plain sad. So one of my fav forums is off limits for a few more days. Not too long-love those guys! (read more... )

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Stupid(Webster "ain't neva lied")....
Did anyone catch the Dateline NBC show "To Catch a Predator" lastnight? ...shaking my head... it was sad to watch. I was surprised to find out that those predators didn't actually have to touch the "child" in order to warrant an arrest! Yay! It was a terrible display of the result of "online grooming", but a couple of those catches had James and I rolling with laughter. Stupid!

I was curious about when they were gonna have some set up for female predators. It may not be enough of them out there to get a hit- oh wait- they are doing it in the public schools instead. Oops, wont be able to catch 'em on dateline! ( end sarcasm)...