Yesterday while James and I were unpacking and organizing some things, I mentioned to him that I had found my keys. They had gone missing the day before. My five year old was listening(as always) and jumped into the room. She put her hands on her hips and with a child's scowl look on her face said, "Mama! I hid your keys so you wouldn't have to go to work!". Ah, the anguish in my heart. I wonder what she made out of my facial expression, because I had no words at the moment. She was hurt that I found the keys and that is why I left for work the other day(I had used daddy's). So I quickly repremanded her for stealing and hiding things from us and she went back to playing. James was in the room the whole time, but was silent. After 12 years of marriage, he knows me, and I was a water keg about to burst..but I didn't. So when he left the room, I called Big girl in and gave her and baby girl a big hug and kiss, and told them I loved them, and hopefully I will be home soon.
I always make sure my children are not around when I talk to husband about coming home from the workplace, but maybe she has eavesdropped on some of our talks. Either way, she is as desperate for me to stop working outside the home as I am.
I know some would suggest getting her more outside activities to do during the day to distract her and take her mind off of the fact that she misses me, but that is just creepy to me.
So I was feeling sorry for myself and my decision to not put her in government school, when as always, the Lord gives me some encouragement. Here's a portion of an email I received from my aunt. She was replying back to me. I had forgot I have written her.
When it comes to home schooling you really would have to have worked in the public system and the private system to see its value. I have worked public and I have worked private. The only reason I am in the public system is the money. Van still works in the private/public system. #1 priority is to join a home schooling group and a home schooling university. You can find them online. You can find the closest ones in your community.
I don't personally think that is the #1 priority, but it does seem important to do
The best way to set the family at ease is test scores. I am sure you are smart enougn to get the job done. Get as much knowledge as possible before you really start...Remember, while you set-up your system and finalize it, some things you will have to keep to yourself and share only with James.
It might not seem like much, but it was just the thing I needed to remind me of why I am doing what I am doing. So, I am trying to be patient with my situation at work just in case my Big girl is still eavesdropping...
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Your little girl sounds like she misses you terribly- so sweet.
Yes, she is a sweetheart, and wears her heart on her sleeve. My baby girl doesn't so much and that scares me a little because I know she feels the same way as my oldest daughter, but withdraws from me some...pray for them if you feel led to.
wow, you have very beautiful kids. very sad to know your daughter misses you. i will pray for you sis.
Just wanted to send a word of encouragement your way. God is in control and He knows the desire you have to stay home and homeschool. I had a hard time with letting God work everything out for me, I thought I had to figure out the logistics of staying home. Trying to have patience and figure it out myself was almost physically painful- I wanted to stay home so bad it literally hurt!
Once I gave my desire to stay home to God, He was able to fulfill His calling for me. If He can do it for us, after my husband lost his job and I was the only one working, He will do it for you! It took some effort and sacrifice on our parts, but God has been good to us.
Ann, thank you for visiting.
Thank you ladies for the encouragement. The Lord will work it all out. God Bless you.
I have never been to your blog before, but I'm likin' it. I'll be back. :-)
Hello. I appreciate your comment on my blog. I like your blog, and pray that you continue to have faith that everything will work out.
wow sis, in this day in age people dont even like their kids or think they could tolerate being with them all day..so needless to say it is refreshing to hear and also to know how much you want to embrace God's calling with training up your children. Continue to be in prayer and milk that job for all that it will provide for you in this season. Not to mention the part it plays in your sanctification.
Most of all continue to love on those kids and respect James in this season because it's easy to grumble and complain!
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